I love birthdays.

Mine and everyone else’s. For me, celebrating a birthday is honoring the day that a person came to be, a whole human being that came into existence from seemingly nowhere, and you just can’t beat that.

But when I turned 30, I briefly considered no longer commemorating my birthday because turning 30 meant I was getting older and getting much closer to having to face my own mortality. I hated the thought of dying, as evidenced by the huge dose of health anxiety, previously known as hypochondria, I felt on a regular basis since my late 20s, so anything that reminded me I was getting closer to death had to go. Little did I know that death was closer to knocking at my door than I ever realized.

Hi, friends!

I haven’t been posting much lately because I’ve had a rough couple of weeks with my anxiety. The most frustrating thing about anxiety for me is that I can go for weeks and even months feeling like I have a handle on things. Feeling back to normal and believing that everything is fine and I’m healthy and life is wonderful. And then, all of a sudden, BAM! I experience a little bit of stress, a few sleepless nights and then get hit seemingly out of nowhere with these feelings of dread because something is wrong, and then things come crumbling down.

Apologies for being a little MIA for a few weeks. We have a board of directors meeting coming up and planning/coordinating it is, like, half of my job so I’ve been really busy. Then Daylight Savings Time ended and made me really tired, but I’m back with an outfit round up. I wish I could tell you that the photo quality is going to get better soon but I just don’t know when that will happen. And these outfits are a little old — I wore them when it was still warm outside — but they’re good ones, so I wanted to share!

Here’s a closer look at each outfit.